"For you have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling; I will walk before the LORD in the land of the living." Psalm 116:8&9



Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Fear

I was hoping for answers today. I did not get them. Our oncologist was not satisfied with the information we got from the pathology report, so he is sending it off for further testing. We are hoping to know more next week.  

In the past few days, anxiety began creeping into my heart. And with so may questions left unanswered, my imagination has gone to some very dark, very scary places. Tonight, as William and I read the Bible before bed, the Lord used a favorite story of ours to very strongly encourage my weary, fearful soul. Here is an exert from our reading:

Then Jesus turned to his wind-torn friends, "Why were you scared?" he asked.  "Did you forget who I Am? Did you believe your fears, instead of me?"
Jesus' friends were quiet. As quiet as the wind and the waves. And into their hearts came a different kind of storm.
"What kind of man is this?" they asked themselves anxiously.  "Even the wind and the waves obey him!" they said, because they didn't understand.  They didn't realize yet that Jesus was the Son of God.
Jesus' fiends had been so afraid, they had only seen the big waves.  They had forgotten that, if Jesus was with them, then they had nothing to be afraid of.  
No matter how small their boat - or how big the storm.
(The Captain of the storm, the Jesus Storybook Bible)

I am uncertain of just how big this storm we are facing will be. But God loves William more than I do. And He is the one in charge of the storm. So I will trust. God, grant me faith.

Continue to pray with us. Continue to hope. We will continue to fight, no matter how hard it gets. Come, Lord Jesus, come...

7 comments:

Ana said...

I will be praying.Please let me know if there is anything that I can help you with and you know I really mean it girl!

Christine said...

Dear Charity,
Someone whom I have never met named Ana asked me to pray for you. Then she gave my your blog site.
I have yet to read it all. I will share with you that I have been a young widow since 2006. I have 3 boys 10,7,and 4. We will be continuing to pray for you and little William.
In His Hands,

Christine said...

not sure if it showed up on our comment. Our blog is bb4thelord@blogspot.com

Just Jana said...

Praying fervently for you and little William! Paul Matthies shared your blog with me and I have been following it so that I may pray for you and your family.

Christine said...

Just wanted to pop in to say you were on my mind and in my prayers tonight. Praying you feel held...

Kathy said...

We will be praying for precious William, you and your family, Charity. May God lead the doctors. You are in our prayers and thoughts often.

Christine said...

Charity,
You are on my heart and in my prayers today!
HUGS!